I try a lot to figure things out. I look for reasons, for explanations.
I’m living in a rational world among the ones I call “thinking people”. I know that there are people who share my thinking when it comes to the creator we call GOD. I’m a non-believer. I think that if there would be neither the love of heaven, nor the fear of hell, most of the “believers” would even forget about their faith in not a moment’s delay because they are God fearing, not God loving. I see the world through a very rational eye. I will never be able to accept meaningless realities of idol worshiping, or worshiping in the assigned areas like temple, mosque, church to name a few. Does God reside only in confined places? Answer yourselves people! Then there are others who claim that there exists some power, call it God, Allah, Bhagwan or by any other name who is the master of this universe, who is the divine artist. Yet I do not buy their words.
….then why? Oh why when it comes to answering questions like..”When you look up, who do you think created it all?”…am I speechless? The believers would say that it’s God and end all torments of theirs. But here I, I keep on driving myself crazy while trying to put scientific explanations behind it all. I try to solve this puzzle, all in vain. When I cannot find answers, I simply accept that science is still to evolve. Yes, this is how I sort things out when the question comes about God.
Then again, I’m wondering why am I writing God with a capital G when it’s nothing more than a name to me. Moreover, why in the business of life have I chosen to write a little something but in God? I don’t know, and I guess I will never be able to figure certain things out, and that’s what troubles me. A lot.
They say that once you understand God, you’ll be able to figure out your unanswered questions. You’ll be a better human then. But I don’t need reason to be good, do I? I don’t want to be a person that I am only because the guy called God is looking at every move of mine. I must be human not because I fear punishment or crave for the rewards, but because being human is what comes right from my heart.
Then, I don’t have to look for answers every time, I guess.